Wednesday, 16 October 2013

Photo art.


Today, as a bit of a change from the norm, I thought I'd blog about a hobby of mine that I occasionally use to brighten up my blog posts a bit.

For quite sometime now, I have been into photo art, and with the aid of apps and some basic drawing skills on my part, it has never been easier to do. 


So, I am going to share with you some of my photo art; old and new. I hope you like them :) 

This is a fairly old piece of photo art that I did
I really loved the colours on this one
and made it using a free computer programme called
Gimp.
This is a piece of photo art I actually created yesterday and then turned into a cover for my
latest WIP Finding Kelsey.
I drew the art work, then used photo apps to play around with it a bit until I had what I wanted. 
I drew this little angel and did much the same process as the above, although I did not turn this one into cover art.
One of her wings was a little too small though but considering it only took me about 10 mins to get to this stage. Including the drawing itself I was relatively happy. 
I did this little Rat for a blog post a few days ago. About my furry friends. He was another
quick draw that actually came out pretty well. 
Another take on the eye and flower drawing above. I can't decide if I like this one or not. 

I did this moose drawing quite a while ago and thought it looked pretty good in this pop art style. 

I did this tree quite a long time ago now. Again I drew the image myself and then played around
with my photo apps to get this finished product. 

These are my twin kittens Tizzy and Timmy. I loved this picture of them
so much that I had to play around with it a bit and see what I could come up with
I don't think it turned out to bad.
I was certainly happy with the overall result.

This was a very simple image of my dog Harley de,
even the most basic of images can make great photo art. 

Another really old piece of photo art, created with the ait of Gimp

Second life avatar photos can also make great photo art.
This was from a fun day out on second life with the love
Chuck Jolly. Both our avatars decided to go a bit retro. 

This piece of photo art just goes to show that you don't have to have the greatest
drawing skills to create fun photo art. 

The Drawing aspect of this one didn't come out quite so well as I had hoped but
I liked the overall effect. So figured I'd still share it. 
You don't have to be a great artist to create photo art. It's a fun hobby that pretty much anyone can have a go at, especially with the creation of photo apps that are available for smartphones and the like.

Just choose a picture, load it into your app, and play around. Trial and error can lead to some great pictures and best of all, some great content to brighten up any blog or help you create the perfect book cover.

Let me show you, just what I mean.

My cover for my novel Insane Reno was created with photo apps on my phone. I started out with a very plain image that was in no way special, as you can see below.

Yep this was the Original Insane Reno covers, picture. 
I then played around with several photo apps and turned it into this...


So, why not give photo art a go and see what you can come up with. I'd love to see your photo art, when your done, and hear about the experience. Did you enjoy it? Would you try again?

Thanks for stopping by and taking the time to read my post.

Love and hugs, Joss xx

What's up Wednesday




What's up Wednesday is run by the lovely Jaime Morrow and her sister Erin L.Funk. You can check out their blogs by clicking their names. It's a really simple blog fest. Each week we answer the questions below and you get to learn a little about what we are up to. So, lets get started. 
  1. WHAT I'M READING
  2. WHAT I'M WRITING
  3. WHAT INSPIRES ME, RIGHT NOW
  4. WHAT ELSE I'VE BEEN UP TO
1.) what I'm reading. 

I am currently reading The Raven Boys, by Maggie Stiefvater. I'm about half way through it now and really enjoying it, although it did take me a little while to really get into this one. I seemed to stumble a lot over the words, in the beginning, and had to keep going back to re-read parts of it; which is unusual for me with Maggie's books.

Before this, I read The Scorpio Races, also by Maggie Stiefvater, and I absolutely loved that. From the first page to the last, I was hooked. 


2) What I'm writing. 

Currently, I am still editing Memory Book and working on my new WIP, which finally has a name, Finding Kelsey and a possible cover, too. 

I'll probably come up with a few covers, before I make an actual guaranteed choice, but here is the first one I have come up with. I would love to know what you think. The art work for this cover is all mine I drew it, then photo edited it, before transforming it into an actual cover. 



I love playing around with cover ideas to go along with what I write. If anyone wants a cover at any time, I'd be happy to have a play around, if I have time. I won't charge for covers, as this is something I really just do for fun, So, if you ever want me to have a play on your behalf, if I have the time, I'd be more than happy to. :)

3) What's inspiring me right now.

Other people's kindness always inspires me. There was a time, when I struggled to see any kindness in the world and now I am seeing it everywhere. I have always been the kind of person who feared others judgement and am slowly starting to realise that those that do make unfair judgements are normally unhappy in their own life and it causes them to ridicule and belittle others. You have to forgive these people for their hurtful words and their pain and move on; while, at the same time, being grateful for all the good people out there, and there are a lot of good people, if you open your eyes enough to see them. 

4) What else I've been up to. 

Spending lots of time with my lovely little family; something I really needed, after what has been a fairly rough time of late. Also, clearing excess junk out of my life, in order than I can move forward; something I have been struggling to do for quite a few years now, due to old ties, holding me back. 

I've had a difficult relationship with some of my closest blood relatives, my mother especially. We had been trying to fix the damage with therapy, but it all became too difficult, when my mother admitted that she had known her partner was abusing me and done nothing. It was something I had always suspected, but actually hearing it aloud was incredibly difficult; especially as she had gone out of her way, all my life, to accuse me of being a liar about the abuse, despite some of the very serious injuries I received because of it. 

The stupid part is I understand now why she went out of her way to make me look like a liar. It was a desperate attempt to protect herself, because of her lack of action. What I struggle to understand is how a mother could sit back and do nothing, knowing that her child was being beaten on a regular basis; especially given that my own mother was abused as a child herself. I could never do that to my own child, but then I suppose everyone is different. 

At any rate, this week, I finally put a pin in that part of my life and broke away from my mother completely; something I probably should have done a long time ago, but I guess I clung to the hope that one day things would change; she would change. 

I am very lucky though, as I have found and built a beautiful family of my own with my wonderful husband and beautiful little boy. Not to mention a lot of great friends, who I think of very much as my family, and a whole host of wonderful furry friends, too. 

I thought it would hurt a lot to finally say goodbye to my blood relatives, but I actually feel lighter, somehow. 

The only time I find it hard is when I see people talking about the importance of mums and how they should be respected and loved. I wonder, if they'd had my mother, would they feel the same?
People reassure me that I have done the right thing, but I am sure, for a while, there will be doubts. Hopefully, with time though, this will change; because, deep down, I know I did what I needed to do. The only mistake I think I made was leaving it so long before taking this step. 
Onward and upwards, as they say. 


As a final note, I need to give a big thank you to my awesome husband, who brought me a lovely box of Milk Tray yesterday. I am not sure what I did to deserve it, but I really appreciated it and will be enjoying them immensely, over the next few days. 

Well, that's me. What have you been up to this week? 

Love and hugs, Joss xx 

Monday, 14 October 2013

Lost furry friends

Recently, a dear old furry friend of mine called Scbu passed away. Scbu was a calico cat that I got as a little kitten, who later went to live with my sister-in-law, where she enjoyed a wonderful life.

Since her death, I have been thinking a lot about the furry friends that have come and gone in my life, over the years, and decided to do a blog post about it; starting, of course, with Scbu.

The Beautiful Scbu
Scbu came into my life when I was just a teen. I've always been animal mad, but back then I rescued animals like crazy. I guess because they brought me so much joy to my life, when I was far from happy.

I first found out about Scbu, when I was told about a lady, who used to breed Calico cats and now had hundreds of them at the back of her huge house. This was something I just had to see and so, while my mum was at the hospital visiting my sister, who'd just had a baby, I set off to meet this intriguing woman. 

When I got there, the house was a huge, hulking thing; its windows, all dusty and full of cobwebs and the garden, so overgrown it was a struggle to get to the front door.

                     

Once I did get to the door, no amount of knocking seemed to gain a response. 

All remained gloomy inside; it really was creepy. 

I was just about to leave, when someone called to me from the driveway and there, at the very end of it, stood a very bent, old lady. 

I had yet to see a single cat yet; however, so I was starting to think I had the wrong address. 

I already knew that she had kittens for sale, I'd seen an add in the little shop, nearby; so, using that, I said, "I'm trying to find the lady with the kittens for sale. Do you know where she lives?" 

"You've found me." She replied, then hurried me around to the back of the house, where she began to explain that I should not hang about, at the front, because the ghost wouldn't like it. 

I was already creeped out by this house, without her mentioning a ghost, so her words had my anxiety levels flying.

The back of her house was even worse than the front. There were falling down sheds, heaps of clutter, and dotted among it all, cats; lot's of cats, several of them, eyeing me suspiciously. 

There were big cats, small cats, black cats, white cats, short hair, long hair, tabbys, and gingers, and scattered among them were the Calico's I'd come expecting to see.

I was bustled into the back of the large house. Two rooms is where the old lady lived, because she was to afraid to enter the rest of the house, due to the ghost she had mentioned before. 

The result, she'd claimed the kitchen and a small bathroom for herself and locked the door that led through to the rest of the house.

The kitchen was old and falling apart. Everywhere you looked was cat food and a tiny bed was shoved to one end of the room; the blanket on it, so thick with cat hair you couldn't tell what colour the fabric underneath might be.

I asked her about her cats and she told me that she'd, once upon a time, only had the Calico's, but they'd breed with local cats, when her pens got to old to keep them in, and she now had all sorts.

She went on to explain how the cats weren't hers, they'd just claimed her as their servant, so she fed and cared for them, as best she could. 

They were well looked after, better than she was herself. They were all well fed and healthy and she told me how a relative helped her get their food and take them to the vet. 

Something had clearly happened in this lady's life that led to her strange living arrangements and her fear of the ghost, but she was relatively happy in herself.

You see, I went to visit her many times after that first visit; but, it was that first visit that I met Scbu. She was one of the tiny kittens the lady had for sale and she had a poorly paw. 

"Rats," the woman explained, when I asked what had happened to her, "She's been to the vets and has medicine for it. Her mother had her in the shed and the rats took a liking to her." 

                       


She had the little kitten, along with her siblings, in an old fruit box. She was trying to keep it clean, as the vets had told her to, to stop infection, but she wasn't so hot at keeping things tidy. 

I knew right then and there I had to have Scbu, as she would later be named. 

I had ridden my bike to the house that day and brought nothing with me, as I hadn't intended to take any cats home; but, the old lady was so keen to get Scbu out of there, so her paw could heal, without risk, that she insisted I take her, there and then.

She gave me a wire basket, filled it with newspaper, and placed beautiful, little Scbu inside. Then she shoved her antibiotics in my pocket, instructed me when her check up was due, and how I was to bring her the bill, and sent me on my way.

It was a long walk home and an awkward one. It's not much fun, trying to push a bike, with one hand, and carry a cat basket, as steadily as possible, in the other, but I didn't want to ride my bike, in case the poor little cat got scared.

Mum was not best pleased about the newest addition, when she got home, but when she saw her and heard her story, she agreed, she could stay. 

Scbu's paw healed well and never seemed to give her any trouble, later in life, and she grew into a beautiful cat, as you can see above.
                       

Her name came from the Special Care Baby Unit, which people had nicknamed Scbu and where my sister's baby was currently residing, having been born premature. 

Scbu was a baby of one of the old lady's prize winning cats, who did very well in shows until the lady retired from them. Scbu's father could have been one of hundreds of cats, so he is an unknown. Whether he was calico or not is also unknown, but Scbu had the Calico markings of her mother, although a little lighter in colour. 

She grew up to be an incredibly sweet and gentle little cat with a lovely nature and she will be very sadly missed. 

I've been so lucky to have an amazing collection of furry friends in my life. 

Another one, dear to my heart, was old Sweep, a border collie cross we owned, back when I was a kid. She was really the first dog we owned that I was old enough to fully remember.

She was black with a few white bits, here and there, and so gentle and sweet. She was the perfect family dog and I adored her. 

She came to us from a man, who owned an old canal boat, apparently, (I was too young at the time to remember it myself) and he used to have a ramp, so Sweep could get in and out of the water, whenever she pleased, as she loved to swim. 

He was disabled and was finding it harder to live in the boat, so was having to move away. 

Knowing how much Sweep loved the water, he didn't want to take her away from it, and so he re-homed her to us, so she could stay in Bude, near the canal and the beach, and continue to enjoy her passion. 
                    

I adored that sweet girl, but sadly old age and cancer claimed her. Seeing her go devistated me. I was losing a best friend. 

Sweep had always been one of those dogs, who just knew when you needed a hug. She was a star. 

Sadly, I no longer have any pictures of Sweep. We moved around a lot, when I was younger, and lots of things would get left behind in the process.

The best way to describe sweep was similar to a flat-coated retriever, which we actually believe was what she was crossed with, but with a little white around the neck, muzzle, and paws; similar to the Border collie's more classic markings, as well as a slightly more collie shaped face. :) 

The final story I'm choosing to tell you is a love story. 

When my hubby and I first met, I had a very scruffy, little rat, called KD. He had free roam of my bedroom and was a real character; often climbing up on people and trying to steal things from them. He once stole a rollie, not lit thankfully, as she had only just made it, from my friend mouth. 
(A rollie, for those of you who don't know, is a DIY cigerette) 

Anywho, we'd had KD a couple of years, when a friend of ours told us they had a rat, called Cako, they needed to re-home. Knowing how much we loved our rat, I guess they wanted us to take Cako, too. We agreed, but explained that we'd have to get KD done first. We didn't want baby rats. 

Once KD was done, Cako came to live with us. We introduced them slowly, as you do, starting off with just cage to cage meetings, then putting KD in his cage, so that Cako could roam around his new space for a bit, meaning the room.

It didn't take long before they were both happily living together, for the most part; however, there were a few issues. Cako liked a clean cage, everything in it's place, and KD like to make a mess. Like an old married couple, Cako would tell KD off for taking food up to bed and would also try to groom his scruffy fur into some semblance of neatness. 

For the most part, KD would take it in his stride, by ignoring her and filling the bed with food anyway or trying to protect himself from her tongue with raised paws; but, one day, Cako's cleaning became to much for old KD and he gave her a good telling off and chased her from the cage. 

As Cako flew out the cage, she caught her tail and ripped the skin half off, so that the bone was clearly visible. We hurried her to the vets and they had no choice but to amputate half of her tail. 

When she returned, KD was so attentive to her, even cleaning her, which KD never did, that all was quickly forgiven. 

We also tail-proofed the door, to ensure the same thing couldn't happen again. 

KD and Cako lived together happily for years, until KD, suddenly died from old age. We were all devastated, but none, more so, that Cako, who refused to eat or drink. 

Just a week after KD died, despite the vet's best efforts to help Cako, she too, passed away. She just didn't want to live without her KD, bless her. 

                      

What some people see as just pets, others see as family, and that has always been the case for me. My pets have been a huge part of my life and they have all had such varied characters.

Animals leave paw prints on our hearts, just like people, and these are just some of the little furries, who have left paw prints on mine. 

Has a pet left paw prints on your heart? If so, I'd love to hear about them. 

Our pets may be gone, but they are never forgotten. 

Love and hugs, Joss xxx
                        

Express yourself meme



It Monday and for me that means it's time for the, Express yourself meme, check out others post here.

Each week, we are given a question to answer and I have been dreading all the Halloween questions, because, quite frankly, I've never really been big on Halloween. I'm not sure why. Even back in my pagan days, I never gave too much thought to the holiday, and my only involvement in it now comes from buying candy for the visiting kids, in their cute costumes, and likewise, taking my son out, sweet collecting, lol.

Halloween was always, to me, just a thing for kids more than adults and I think it is the same for a lot of people in the UK, as none of my friends really celebrate Halloween; unless, like me, they have kids, who they take out trick-or-treating.

As a result of this, I can't really remember any costumes I have worn for Halloween in detail, not even the more recent ones I have worn on Second Life, except one that my bestie purchased for me, just the other day. It is actually pretty cool and the one, therefore, I am going to use for this post today.

For those of you who don't know, Second Life is a virtual world in which you live as an avatar. You can create your own content, purchase other people's content, play games, go to virtual clubs, churches, theme parks, all sorts. Pretty much, if someone can imagine it and create it, Second Life will have it. It also hosts some great writer's groups, too.

So, my outfit, I believe, was called Sexy Bat Girl. I can't check, as I am currently on my netbook, which won't run Second Life, and my laptop isn't working at the mo  :(   although, it should be up and running soon.


This is probably best costume I have ever had, as I have never really put that much effort into costumes.

What was your favourite Halloween costume like? 

Love and hugs, Joss xx 

Saturday, 12 October 2013

Haunted Bodmin moor part 2: Charlotte Dymond




Smuggling, mining, beasts, and ghouls; Bodmin moor has them all and for the month of October, in celebration of Halloween, I’m going to be exploring some of the moor's spookier goings on.

Last week, we looked at a brief history of Bodmin moor, along with the haunted Jamaica Inn. If you haven't read it yet you can find Haunted Bodmin moor part 1 here.

This week we are focusing on the ghost of Charlotte Dymond. I first discovered Charlotte several years ago, when I became fascinated with ghosts around Cornwall.


Living very close to the moors, Charlotte's tragic story, with it's mixture of murder, mystery, and love intrigued me immensely, especially given that it all took place on the moors that I adore.

Charlotte's tale is now commonly taught in schools, as English students, all over the UK, study her story, including reading the Ballad of Charlotte Dymond.  


The Ballad of Charlotte Dymond 
by Charles Causley


It was a Sunday evening
And in the April rain
That Charlotte went from our house,
And never came home again.

Her shawl of diamond redcloth,
She wore a yellow gown,
She carried a green gauze handkerchief
She bought in Bodmin town.

About her throat her necklace
And in her purse her pride
As she walked out one evening
Her lover at her side.

Out beyond the marshes
Where the cattle stand,
With her crippled lover
Limping at her hand.

Charlotte walked with Matthew
Through the Sunday mist,
Never saw the razor
Waiting at his wrist.

Charlotte she was gentle
But they found her in the flood
Her Sunday beads among the reeds
Beaming with her blood.

Matthew, where is Charlotte
and wherefore has she flown?
For you walked out together
And now are come alone.

Why do you not answer,
Stand silent as a tree,
Your Sunday woollen stockings
All muddied to the knee?

Why do you mend your breast-pleat
With a rusty needle’s thread
And fall with fears and silent tears
Upon your single bed?

Why do you sit so sadly
Your face the colour of clay
And with a green gauze handkerchief
Wipe the sour sweat away?

Has she gone to Blisland
To seek an easier place,
And is that why your eye won’t dry
And blinds your bleaching face?

“Take me home!” cried Charlotte,
“I lie here in the pit!
A red rock rests upon my breasts,
And my naked neck is split!”

Her skin was soft as sable,
Her eyes were wide as day,
Her head was blacker than the bog
That licked her life away.

Her cheeks were made of honey,
Her throat was made of flame
Where all around the razor
Had written its red name.

As Matthew turned at Plymouth
About the tilting Hoe,
The cold and cunning Constable
Up to him did go:

“I’ve come to take you, Matthew,
Unto the Magistrate’s door.
Come quiet now, you pretty poor boy.
And you must know what for.”

“She is pure,” cried Matthew,
“As is the early dew,
Her only stain it is the pain
that round her neck I drew!”

“She is guiltless as the day
She sprang forth from her mother.
The only sin upon her skin
Is that she loved another...”

They took him off to Bodmin,
They pulled the prison bell,
They sent him smartly up to Heaven
And dropped him down to Hell.

All through the granite kingdom
And on its travelling airs
Ask which of these two lovers
The most deserves your prayers.

And your steel heart search, Stranger,
That you may pause and pray
For lovers who come not to bed
Upon their wedding day.


But lie upon the moorland
Where stands the sacred snow
Above the breathing river,
And the salt sea-winds go.

This is a picture of Roughtor, taken very close to the site of
Charlotte's murder.
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 is licensed under the Creative Commons Attribution 3.0 Unported license.Attribution: Andy F at en.wikipedia


Charlotte's story makes for a classic tragedy; a young, beautiful maiden, brutally murdered by her less attractive lover with his crooked teeth, lack of height, and prominent limp, a lover, whose only attraction for Charlotte, probably lay in the belief that he'd recently come into money. 

To Charlotte, an illegitimate girl, disowned by her mother, and left with no support in life, Matthew Weeks must have seemed like a dream come true.  

Matthew was not Charlotte's only suitor. Thomas Prout also had a fancy for her. He was the twenty-six year old nephew of Philipa Peters; an old widow, who owned Penhale farm. where both Charlotte and Matthew worked as live-in servants, along with John Stevens. Also residing at the farm was Philipa's son, who was also named John.

Prout was a labourer, who worked with Matthew from time to time. It was said that they did not get on, and it is not surprising, as it appears Prout intended to steal Charlotte's affections from Matthew; a fact that was disclosed by servant John Stevens, who overheard Prout stating that he intended to move to Penhale Farm and that, when he did, he would easily take Charlotte from Matthew.  Later, it was revealed that Prout and Charlotte may have actually been planning to elope. 

It was not to be; however, for on the 14th of April, 1844, Charlotte was murdered. The 14th of April, that year, fell on a Sunday, so all the household would have been dressed in their Sunday best. For Charlotte, this was a green striped dress with a red shawl. 

She left the farm that day around 4 pm, with Matthew weeks by her side, making it clear that she would not be back in time for milking, but that Matthew would be. Later that evening, Isaac Cory, a sixty-three year old farmer, who was related to Stevens, Prout, and Mrs Peters, turned up at the farm. He mentioned to the residents that he had seen Matthew, who he claimed to have recognised at once, due to his limping gait, in the company of a young woman; a woman that he apparently could not identify. He did; however, manage to describe her clothes, the same green striped dress and red shawl that Charlotte had left in.  

Mrs Peters expected her servants to be in at half past nine, each evening. That night, when Matthew returned home, the family set about  questioning him on the whereabouts of Charlotte, to which Matthew said, he did not know.

The men went to their beds around half past ten that night, but Mrs Peters claimed she was concerned about Charlotte and decided to stay up and wait for her return. She remained awake for another hour, before heading to bed, herself. 

Monday meant wash day at the farm and still there was no sign of Charlotte. As a result, Matthew was again questioned and once more, he stated that he did not know where Charlotte might be. 

Mrs Peters claimed that, later that day, she discovered Matthew's blue stockings, which he had worn the previous day, were muddied, up to the knees. Although there had been some rain that Sunday, she felt that it was not enough to get the stockings in such a mess. The mud, she explained, was like that found in the turf pits on the moor. 

Again, Mrs Peters went to Matthew and asked about Charlotte. She claimed that, this time, Matthew told her that he had accompanied Charlotte, only as far as the gate in Higher Down Field, just before the edge of the moorlands. From there, he said, Charlotte had gone onto the moor, alone, while he had gone in the opposite direction, towards Halworthy; where Mrs Peters' daughter, Mary, and her husband, John Westlake, lived. He said that they had not been at home and that he had then called at the house of John Westlake's mother, Sarah. 

This naturally puzzled Mrs Peters, as Isaac Cory claimed to have seen Matthew the previous day, walking on the moors with a girl, who had matched the description of Charlotte. 

On Tuesday, John Stevens allegedly noticed that Matthew's shirt was torn at the collar and a button was missing. It is said that Matthew insisted on mending it himself, which led to the other residents of Penhale farm becoming  more suspicious. 

Later that day, Matthew also mentioned to a visitor that if Charlotte were to be found dead, her mother would be tried for her life. This led to Mrs Peters challenging him again, resulting in Matthew revealing that Charlotte had gone to take up a new position at Blisland, ten miles away, because she had received a weeks notice from Mrs Peters. (Mrs Peters denied this).
Matthew went on to say that, as it was too far for Charlotte to travel in one evening, she had intended to stay the night at a friend's house. 

When Wednesday came, Mrs Peters had given up on her questioning and was now openly accusing Matthew of doing away with Charlotte, out of jealousy. Matthew; however, stuck to his story. 

Despite these accusations, it seems that work on the farm strangely continued as normal. That Friday, a pig was to be killed by the local butcher. Matthew, still wearing the shirt he'd had on the Sunday of Charlotte's disappearance (since there would be no clean shirts till the coming Sunday) asked if he could kill the pig himself; which he did. 

By this point, news of Charlotte's disappearance had spread all over the moors; not surprising, as nothing, it seems, travels faster than gossip. The result was the whole moorland community, openly voicing their suspicions about Matthew. 

It was at this point it was decided that action must be taken, and so John Peters and John Stevens went to check and see if Matthew's story was indeed true. Matthew also went out that day and Mrs Peters and her daughter decided to search his room, while he was gone, but found nothing particularly suspicious. 

Still, two handkerchiefs and a newspaper clipping regarding a murder committed by a man in prison, found at the time of the search, were used as evidence against Matthew at his trial, despite having no relevance. 

When the two Johns returned to Penhale, suspicions were raised further. Charlotte had never stayed at her friends, nor had there been a job in Blisland. It was clear that someone was lying. Either Matthew had made up the story to account for Charlotte's disappearance or Charlotte had lied to Matthew. 

On Sunday April 21st; a week after Charlotte's disappearance, Matthew put on his best clothes, took his umbrella, and walked out of Penhale farm, never to return.

Washday came around again. Mrs Peters said she found the shirt Matthew had worn on the day of his walk with Charlotte and as well as the already noticed wear, there were also now spatters of blood. The case against Matthew, suddenly seemed complete, especially given it seemed, as if he had fled. It was time to search the moor. 

The following day, Charlotte's body was found by John Peters, John Westlake, John Stevens, and a neighbor, who was not related to the others, at the base of Rougtor, beside a small stream that runs there. She was found, face upwards, about a foot from the stream; her throat slit and her coral necklace, broken around her. 

A search went out for Matthew and he was later found in Plymouth. He was found guilty of Charlotte's murder and was subsequently sentenced to death by hanging. 

But, did Matthew really kill Charlotte? 

Some believe not, saying that the only people closely involved with Matthew, after Charlotte's murder, were all related to Prout; a man who, despite having an attraction to Charlotte, seemed to stay away at the time of her disappearance. 

So, was it all a set up? Did Prout murder Charlotte and did his family, on hearing about it, set out to frame Matthew to save their own family's reputation?

Did Matthew leave the farm, simply because he could not cope with their constant accusations? 
Monument on Poldue Downs The inscription reads: 'This monument is erected by public subscription in memory of Charlotte Dymond who was murdered here by Matthew Weekes on Sunday April 14 1844'.
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Rod Allday

One of the most suspicious parts of this story happened after the trial of Matthew Weeks, when Mrs Peters and her family went out of their way to have a monument placed at the site of Charlotte's death, not simply to remember her, but to remind others that Matthew Weeks was the killer. Yes, they actually had this engraved onto the monument. 

Why would the family go out of their way to do something so extravagant for a mere servant? Some believe that it was their attempt to ensure that no one would forget that Matthew had been found guilty of the murder; a murder that he, in fact, did not commit, but rather a member of their own family had. 

The truth is we may never truly know, but something prevents Charlotte's spirit from moving on; because, to this day, Charlotte is still seen around the area of her death, walking the lonely moors. Sightings are more common on the anniversary of her death and so, on the 14th of April, people often head for Roughtor, in the hope of seeing Charlotte's ghost. 

I have done this, on many occasions, with my husband and it is incredibly creepy. We've even heard someone running towards our car, when there is no one to be seen; their feet causing the gravel to crunch, and have witnessed other phenomena, so it is really worth a visit. 

I hope this post is clear and not too rambling. I'm a bit tired at the moment, and though it wasn't, perhaps, the best time to tackle it, I didn't want to keep you waiting too long for the second part of this series. I will try to find some of the pictures from our visits to Roughtor and post them up at a later date. (They're hidden somewhere in our stack of disks)

Love and hugs,
Joss xx
 












Friday, 11 October 2013

Celebrate the small stuff



When I woke up this morning, I had no idea what I was going to do for this blog post, today. I wondered what there was to celebrate in the wake of recent realisations in my life. Sometimes, it is hard for us to see past our pain to the blessings in our lives.

As some of you will already know, I had an epidural that went wrong. For seven years now, my movement has slowly been declining and the last three years have been a battle to stop it declining further. Sadly, it seems we are failing.

When you look at the spine, you have bone known as the vertebral body. In between this sits the inter-vertebral disk. This disk is what essentially stops the bones of the vertebral body from rubbing together. My inter-vertebral disk is damaged, meaning that when I stand or walk for too long, it begins to rub together, creating a lot of pain. The more the inter-vertebral disk wears away, the less I can stand or walk and the more pain I get.

Recently, I started to get a new pain, higher up my back, that spread to my right shoulder and down my right arm. I didn't know what was wrong and couldn't understand why I had this new pain. Well, yesterday, I found out why. I have a trapped nerve, which most likely indicates that my inter-vertebral disk has been damaged even further; although tests will need to be run for us to be sure.

I made the terrible mistake of allowing myself to believe that we were doing enough to prevent further damage to my spine and so I was devastated to discover that all our efforts seem to have been for nought.  As a result, I didn't feel as if there was much to celebrate. All I could think about was  that the next step for me might be, one day soon, suddenly finding I could never walk or stand again.

I was feeling very self-pitying and that is never a good thing.

So, this morning I was up at 2am. I couldn't sleep for the pain. I tried to get hold of a friend, who lives in America and I knew would still be up; not just any friend, but my best friend, but I had no luck. I browsed the internet for a bit and read a book, all the time, trying to think what I could celebrate today.

I was really building myself up for a massive pity party. I've done this a few times, since my problems first arose, back when I gave birth to my beautiful boy. I've allowed myself to sit there and wonder, why me? The reality is, why shouldn't it be me? What makes me less deserving of this than anyone else? No one ever wants to be in pain. No one ever wants to lose their ability to walk or stand and none of us stop to really consider those who are in that situation, until we find ourselves there.

So, I am celebrating the fact that, though I cannot change my situation, I can accept it and adapt to it. I've already done that before, so what makes this new complication any different?

We don't even know for sure yet if the trapped nerve is due to the damage getting worse or if it is simply bad luck, but negative pity parties are not going to make it any better.

We have to smile, we have to carry on, or what is the point? Tears and anger only make things worse; not just for you, but those around you. We have to look for the positives.

So I am celebrating that, too. (Looking for the positives)



This morning, after taking my son to the bus, I found a positive. I was heading down to the shop on my scooter, when a little squirrel shot towards me. Frightened, he dropped the nut he was carrying and dived back the way he had come. He sat at a distance, watching me, and I sat, watching him. His nut was right by the tire of my scooter. He wanted that nut bad. You could see him eyeing up the nut; looking at me, looking back to the nut.

Right in front of my wheel was a drain. I could see that if I moved there was a good chance it was going to go down the drain and the squirrel would lose it. So, I sat and I made little clicking noises at the squirrel, trying to reassure it that it was safe and I wouldn't hurt it.

Now, the squirrel, for all I know, may have just thought I was insane; however, clearly a non-threat, as he slowly started to move forward, while I sat very still. Soon he was just a few inches from the wheel, standing on his back legs, looking at me; probably wondering, "are you the kind of crazy that's gonna eat me or the kind of crazy that thinks you can talk squirrel?" I guess it must have decided on the later, because he swooped in, grabbed his nut, and scurried around the scooter and across the road; pausing, on the other side, to look back at me briefly, before running up the bank and into the bushes.

A few years ago, I wouldn't have seen that squirrel. In fact, I wouldn't have left the house; because, before I came to terms with the fact that I had a serious problem, I rarely left the house at all, and even when I did, it was only to walk to the car.

That squirrel reminded me that sometimes we have to be brave, even when we don't feel like it.

So, I also want to celebrate the little squirrel that was brave enough to retrieve his nut, even though it was right next to the crazy lady, who thought she could speak squirrel, lol.

So, those are my celebrations. What are you celebrating today?

Love and hugs,
Joss xx (the woman who probably can't speak squirrel)

For those of you who don't know, Celebrate the Small Stuff is an awesome blog hop, hosted by The Vikilit's writing blog.  It enables the blogger community to come together, every Friday, and check out what everyone is celebrating this week. If you want to Join in or find out what others are celebrating, just click the link, in blue above, and sign up to the linky link on the Viklit's blog  :)

                     

Wednesday, 9 October 2013

What's up Wednesday




What's up Wednesday is run by the lovely Jaime Morrow and her sister Erin L.Funk. You can check out their blogs by clicking their names. It's a really simple blog fest. Each week we answer the questions below and you get to learn a little about what we are up to. So, lets get started. 
  1. WHAT I'M READING
  2. WHAT I'M WRITING
  3. WHAT INSPIRES ME, RIGHT NOW
  4. WHAT ELSE I'VE BEEN UP TO
1) What am I reading 


Well, this week, I finished The 13th Floor-Complete Collection by Christine Rains. She is such an amazing author. I loved how the stories kind of merged together. It was very skillfully done. I also loved the twist that the Ghost Novella brought, as well as the Shadow's way of coming up and clearing up the whole idea of how these people all find their way to the 13th floor and become residents. I am really trying not to give too much away here. Can you tell? 

So, let me try and explain, for those who don't know, what the books are about, without giving away too much. 

Each book is based on a resident of the magic 13th floor of a building; a floor that not everyone can see. It plays cleverly on the whole idea that tall structures were often built without a 13th floor as it was deemed unlucky and so they would just leave a gap where it should be. Well, this building is one of those, but where the gap should be, there is a magical 13 floor that only a few can see. 

In each flat is a different mythical being. You have an ex-demon, who pretty much runs everything, a werewolf, a dragon slayer, a harpy, a cursed witch, a vampire, and a ghost. I hope I didn't miss anyone, but you all know what my memory is like. 

Each book sees a resident fighting a battle of some kind and also finding love with all of the stories overlapping and crashing up against each other in a very clever way. 

More than that I won't say, because I am terrified of giving too much away and spoiling it for others.

What I will say again though is that it is brilliant or they are brilliant technically, as it is a series of stories, and thus well worth a read. 

Well done, Christine. You're amazing! 


I also read Reality by Dani Hart, but I don't want to say too much about that one just yet, as I feel I owe it a re-read. I was just in a hurry to get through it, as I wanted to read Scorpio Races by Maggie Stiefvater; so, I didn't give it the time and attention it deserved. 

And now, I am reading Maggie Stiefvater's Scorpio Races. Yay! Only a few pages in, but loving it already. 

2) What am I writing? 

Well, mainly blog posts this week and emails. I have just been so busy, I haven't even had time to look at my WIP or edit Memory Book. Hoping to get some work on both done from tomorrow onwards, but we shall see. 

I am currently doing a series of blog posts for the month of October, in celebration of Halloween, about the hauntings on Bodmin moor, where my first novel, Insane Reno, is set. You can check the first one haunted Bodmin moor part 1, a brief history of the moor and the famous Jamaica inn here, if you like. 

Part 2, all going well, will be up tomorrow. 

3) What inspires me, right now? 

All the new books I am seeing from new authors is really inspiring me, as well as the huge support they get from the blogging community. 

When Insane Reno was first published, I was still coming to grips with the whole blogging thing. I didn't do any real big promotional things for it and I wish I had. I have been told I should do something now, but I am still not sure where to begin or how to go about it. 

Plus, I feel like Insane Reno was published too soon. I allowed others to push me forward when I wasn't happy with it. I way overworked the first chapter and got so paranoid about it that I actually ended up making it worse, rather than better. Yet, no one seems to see that but me. Whenever I try to read it now, that first chapter just drives me insane. Does anyone else feel that way when they look back at their work? I dunno; people seem to like it. Everyone who has read it has loved the story. Though some readers in America seemed to have issues with the grammar, that has since been fixed, thanks to my lovely editor.

I dunno, what do you think? If you think I should do some blog tours with it, then I could really do with some tricks and tips. I know the basics, of course, but I am terrible at being organised.

4) What else I've been up to

Mainly, not sleeping. The rest has just been work, work, and more work; but, it's all worth it. It really has been a busy week though. 

Here's hoping you have all had a much more relaxed week. 

Love and hugs, Joss xx