It's the first Wednesday of the month and that means it's time for another Insecure Writers Support Group.
Due to health I wasn't posting much during 2014 and so it has been a while since I did an IWSG post.
Trying as I currently am, to get into the whole a post a day thing, means I am hoping that I will now be able to do these post every month and have a lot more to talk about.
I understand that today we are meant to be introducing ourselves a bit, so what can I tell you about me.
Well I am a writer, mother and wife. I have one book published called Insane Reno and am currently working on my second Novel. Rehabilitation girls among other things.
I live in a small village in Cornwall, UK, with my wonderful hubby, eight year old son Kye, two dogs, two cats and three bunny rabbits.
I'm disabled, so suffer a lot of pain on a daily basis and have very limited mobility due to a pretty serious back injury, but I am pretty good at managing my pain most of the time now/
I also have an anxiety disorder, which has gotten much worse since my disability, but I am working to build my confidence.
So. as I already mentioned my current work in progress, is Rehabilitation girls and I am really nervous about this one, mainly because the sample chapters that were put up on certain sites were so well received that I am now petrified that I will fail at doing the rest of the book justice.
I almost wish now, as silly as it may seem, that I had never posted up the sampled chapters, because every email I get begging me for more chapters makes my nerves jump that little bit higher.
I am by nature a very anxious person. My doctor recently stuck me on medication because of this and where others thrive under pressure, I freak out and want to run and hide lol.
This was always the problem with me and writing. Insane Reno my first published novel went out before I was ready for it too, but pressure from friends and family made me bite the bullet and do it and even though I got a publisher I still lack faith in myself and the result is that every time I look at Insane Reno, I want to rewrite it.
So my biggest fear I guess is that people will either force me to put RG out before I am ready or worse that I will never get to that point where I feel it is good enough.
Which quite frankly, sucks!
What makes it even worse this time is I have no editor and am relying on Grammerly to get me through that part and although my grammar has improved somewhat, even if I am a little sloppy in my blog posts, I am still petrified of messing up my novel simply because I lack the skills when it comes to grammar.
Which leads to other questions. Should I pay for a professional editor? How will I know I am being charged a fair price? Who's good?
And that's before we even start looking at publishers because my hubby thinks I need to get a better publisher this time, as he is not a fan of my current one.
No one tells you when you start out as a writer just how scary it will be, it all starts off so simple. A happy escape from reality that's for your eye's only.
Well that's all from me for now, I've got this post done in advance so I can spend Wednesday hoping around your posts and seeing your IWSG's. Here's hoping your feeling less insecure than me this month.
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Love and hugs