brain fug and ditzy-itus

Hi all,

Well it’s been a little while since I last posted, there is two reasons for that really, the first being that for quite a few days I was plugging away at Insane Reno like crazy, so much so that I am now at the 59,291 word count mark, so I’m close to my goal length of at least 60,000. And also close to the completion.

I’ve been working through the editing with my editor, the magnificent, sexy, and only slightly pushy Chuck-A-roo, as we go. So all that’s left is to edit 5 chapters, I think, but I’ll have to double check that.

It pays to remember that I have the memory of a goldfish.

Second reason is I went at it so hard with the writing / editing that my brain kinda went into mount down. For several days I was getting up to go get something then completely forgetting what I’d got up for, by the time I reached the kitchen.

On top of that, the impossible happened, I’m pretty well known for my ditzy moments, but in my brain fuggled period, my ditzy-ness reached a whole new high, some examples of this are as followed.

Plugged toaster in, couldn’t get toaster to work, yelled at toaster, sad face because I really wanted toast and the grill is evil. Seriously it is. Decided against toast because of aforementioned evilness of grill, had sandwich instead, sulkily cause really really wanted toast, complained to Dan on his return from work that toaster was broke, begged he fixed toaster, because I really love toast, and hate the grill from hell. So he goes to look at toaster although he didn’t seem very worried about impending risk of toast-less house, fiddles for a few minutes, and then I hear the dreaded words.

“Oh my god, this one is so going on facebook”

Turns out toaster wasn’t broke it just wasn’t plugged in. I’d plugged the blender in instead.

Now that’s just one example the second involves chuckie, the man of my dreams who irradicates all of my bad grammar, that sexy American that I cant get enough of, the one who has to put up with me for hours n hours each day, no wonder he’s lost all his hair, although in my defence he did lose it before I met him, but if he hadn’t I’m sure it would be grey by now.

So, here’s what happens.

We decided to go onto web cam to chat for a bit, so we log on and we start a call, only I can’t hear him, we both do that whole log in and out thing a few times but still I can’t hear him, but he can hear me fine.

So we decide in the end that I will just talk and he’ll type and do dodgy hand signals to get across what he is trying to say.

It was quite fun for me, for a while, because he was there mouth moving no sound coming out, normally he is saying, be serious Jossie, come on we need to get this done, can you be serious for even five seconds, that sort of thing.

So before he started typing it was quite nice to watch his mouth move and nothing come up, however, when I went to get music up on you tube, I realised I couldn’t actually hear that either.

Then it dawned on me, I didn’t have my earphones in, hence why everything was silent. Oppsie.

Now, I do ditzy well at the best of times but those are highs even on my list of duh moments.

Oh and I put my phone in the fridge, no idea why, luckily no damage done.

So that is why I haven’t really posted lately, if I had there’s no telling what you could have ended up with.

So what else is new, well I have started playing around to the sequel to Insane Reno, nicknamed Annie, although that name may change latter, or it may not depends.

Just been thinking over ideas, and started jotting down a rough of the first chapter last night.

Also I tried to quit smoking, and I really did try, for a couple of hours, but it was too much, however someone is clearly determined that I do, because the whole no smoking thing keeps popping up in some of my fav programs.

For instance in Eastie’s whitney has a fag, and a guy says to her, “you know I don’t want you smoking, you’ve got lovely skin, don’t ruin it.” That’s not exact but it’s the gist of it.

And then in my name is earl, one of my all time favs, (this was a repeat of one of the first episodes I believe) earl is trying to quit smoking with a grandma. Well, actually it was his friend’s mother, as he had to give her two years of her life back, so she could get back the two years with her son, that she lost, because Earl when he was bad, let the son go to prison for a crime that Earl had actually commited.

Anywho, I am less than impressed with God constantly plying me with quit smoking messages through my fav television programmes, because I can’t avoid them as I would like too, because I love those shows to much to miss.

All I can say is I get it, I need to quit, but I can’t right now, maybe later.

So there you have it, a brief or not so brief run through of what I have been up to since my last post, and I will try to post more regularly in future, love and hugs Joss. xxx

creeping steadily closer to the 60,000 mark

I have been working on Insane Reno, like crazy since last night, and have managed to edit several chapters as well as increase the word count by two and a half thousand. So as you can imagine I’m feeling pretty proud of myself right now lol.
There is still a ways to go yet, to hit my target of over 60,000 word count, as currently I am at 54,167, but it seems more and more attainable everyday.
And the fact that I am doing some serious restructuring of the story at the moment is really giving me a boost, it just makes a nice change from the earlier chapters were it was really just grammar that needed fixing.
Well I have lots of work to do, so I’m going to get back to writing but take care all and have an awesome day. Xxx

Journalling

I have become a huge fan of Journalling, something that until the end of last year, was an ability I had been unable to grasp.
I love writing, have since I was quite young, and refused to let anything hold me back, even being told I was dislexic didn't stop me.
WOW!!!! I wish I still had that kind of motivation now.
See the thing is I have taken a lot of knocks and blows in my life, and been left feeling less than perfect.
So much so, that I had started to believe that it was better not to try, and thus never fail, than it was to give things everything I had.
You see I had the idea that as people already seemd to be of the oppinion that what ever I tried I would fail at, it was easier, to just not try, at least that way I couldn't hear I told you so.
Ok so reality check, they were proberly still saying that anyway.
Recently my confidence was boosted when I won the Mibit compatition, and got two short stories published in magazines.
Oh my god, I never cried so hard, and I don't think I have ever experieced shock like that, I truely believed that my Mibit would simply be cast to the trash can, so when I saw the email that said, I Jossie Marie Solheim had won, my heart nearly stopped.
And the tears were unleashed, and for the first time in a long time, I wanted to call my family members, I wanted to tell them what I had achieved.
I think, that was when I realised just how badly my family had distroyed my faith in myself.
How other people had destroyed my faith in myself.
I needed that win more than I had ever needed anything in my life, and it really boasted my confidence, so much so that I went on to send out two short stories, both of which were accepted straight away.
I hadn't sent much out in my life in an attempt to get accepted and certainly not for a long time, and so to have a win in the Mibit and then both of my short storys accepted, was a real boost, and encouraged me to dive into my Novel once more, and so Insane Reno grew and grew, it all just seemed to be moving so fast, and then the panic set in.
I had started to doubt myself again, I could see Insane Reno nearing compleation and I was getting scared of failure again, and so I stopped dead in my tracts.
refused to touch it, refused to look at it, certain that it was terrible.
I'm picking it up again now, slowly, the break helped in a sense, because having a break from it, and coming back to it again, made me realise that actually it really wasn't that bad at all, and dare I say it, pretty good.
Ok, honesty time, I'm really not a fan of tooting my own horn to strangers lol, but I was reading and I was thinking, wow, I wrote this.
It's so silly because I know I can write, I have been told that time and time again, by my tutors from the Writers (oh blah, and can not spell that word, lol. I'll just guess at it and hope you figure it out) buero, from people in writers groups, and so on and so fourth.
And I have sent out five things, (I know thats bad) and only had 1 rejection, (not so bad) lol.
That has to say something right.
So I've started working on the final draft of Insane Reno, and it really doesn't need much work, but I really do have to push through that fear of failure, after all, if I fail because I gave up, and didn't try, I'm only hurting myself.
So, tomorrow I will be working on cleaning up chapter 11.
I'm gonna set myself an easy target, aim for tiding up, just the one chapter, and anything else is a bonus.
Oh, I should probably add, that I will be trying other methords to keep me going, and if anyone who reads this plays secondlife, then I would be greatfull for your help with this part.
I have opened in world a small writers Cafe called, Jumpin' Jitters writers cafe, I don't know if you'd be able to find it easily in world, as I only finished setting it up today.
But if you search for my avatar jossie Tyrellium, in search and look at my profile picks there is a link to it there.
Ok, I should probably tell you how you can help, Well, quite simply come along, and write with me, I don't mean Insane Reno, but work on your own novels, your own creative pieces, or poems, I've tried to put stuff out to help inspire.
And even if your not a writer, there is an area set up for chatting and sipping virtual coffee and a reading area, where you can click for a selection of classic story's.
We also have a picture prompt each day for poetry, so there's lots to see and do.
And I love to see you :)
Plus, I've found it really does help get me in the writing mood when I see other people hard at it.
So come along, share some ideas, and meet me in world.
thanks for reading
love and hugs
Joss xxx